Legacies...

all these words are swarming, probably will not come out right, but i just cant seem to let this one go. Sometime a moment captures me so... and i think about it over and over and over..... this is one of those.

Legacies...
What is a legacy? I think we have been taught that it is what we leave for those living after we die. Our legacy, our lasting image, our forever memory....

what legacy do i create for myself, FOR my kids? We need to be creating a legacy of LOVE for them.

I need to document the happy of everything they have and see and love. I need to capture their JOY and their innocence before the world ruins their optimism and purity. I need to preserve for them, the childhood i want them to remember. IT will be a part of who they THINK they are. And if you THINK you are someone that can DO anything, you CAN do anything. You can SOAR and FLY and CREATE and BE and DANCE and SMILE and LOVE and LAUGH.... if you think you have every right to be HAPPY, then you can and will be and life will be FULL of wonder and fabulous smiles and memories will be sweet....

this image made me think of Sweet baby Robert.
ONE day, Baby Robert will be older himself, and yes, one day he may not have his father here on earth with him. But what he WILL have, is images like this that SHOW him that his father loved him even as a small baby with the purest, strongest, UNCONDITIONAL love that exists on earth. He will study images like this over and over, remembering smells, and textures of skin, and the sound of his voice. He will run his fingers over this image almost FEELING him there with him..He will SEE how his daddy smushed his face up against his to give HIM the best of all his kisses.... how his daddy is COMPLETELY immersed in HIM.... that HE was worthy of that love, and that HIS daddy knew he was something special.

So, what legacy of love am i documenting for mine.
Will they be certain of my complete belief in who they are and what they can do?
ill Michael KNOW without a doubt his Mama breathed each moment with such a heavy love and adoration for him?
Will Addie believe that I thought she was cooler than sliced bread and talented and SMART and will she know that i KNEW she would be a fabulous mom to some fabulous kids and a fabulous wife to a fabulous man... will she KNOW i KNEW she can do those things.......
and will Mason (if i survive him being three....) will mason know that he lights up my life with surprises each day and that he will be the one to seek out new challenges and he WILL succeed at his goals? DO my boys KNOW i know they will be great daddies and that they are CAPABLE of loving the way i love them.
Am i leaving PROOF of all this?
What will they hold in their HANDS
as they ponder
and have bad days?
they will have this.
My notes to them.
their proof.....

and Robert will have this.. this image of him and his dad.

These are legacies of love in my book. These are far more important that any trust fund or inheritance will ever be.
These are not things for sale, or things that can be borrowed.
These are legacies of love. From the heart.

What is your legacy of love.....